Idolatry and Carnage

Do not idolize me,
model your life after me,
pedestal me,
look up to me,
a girl with a gun and ADHD and HRT,
even if you are my sister.

But do not desecrate me,
destroy me,
castigate me and toss me out,
turn me into a vessel to displace
all your righteous rage and hate into either.

Even if I would like to be
who you look up to,
I have learned to kill yr idols,
to dance yrself clean.

Instead see me for who I am,
feel my coolness and my heat,
my trans joy and trans pain,
my motivations my weaknesses,
just listen and be present,
especially when I cannot,

and I will defend you.